purple rose

Last night, I grabbed a novel that I've read for more than 10 times already. But every different time I read it, different feeling whispers. So as my lullaby, I dared myself to listen to my old playlist comprising of those nostalgic melodies and familiar lyrics, fraught with many subtle meaning associated to my past life memories. Because letting myself to involve in those rhythm equates placing myself back to my old days.

Sweet pain. 

Full of remorse. 

Love and hate. 

Floating on the road divergences. 

Confused. 

Too young. 

And puzzled. 

Again by Lenny Kravitz 

At every time I've always known

That you were there, upon your throne

A lonely queen without her king

All of my life

Where'd you been

I wonder if I'd ever see you again?

Home is where the heart is by Mcfly 

Home is where the heart is

It's where we started 

Where we belong  

Hard times come easy by Richie Sambora 

And the heart finds a reason

And the love always seems find a way

Even it hurts

Save me by Embrace 

You're looking down that telescope from the only end you know

When life is big and we're still close 

Everybody gets a second go

Everybody gets another go

Gives you hell by All American Rejects 

When you see my face 

Hope it gives you hell

Hope it gives you hell 

When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see what you've done to me

You can take back your memories they're no good to me

Your guardian angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Now that I'm strong I have figured out 
How the world turns cold and it breaks through my soul 
And I know I can be the one
I will never let you fall 

Silhouette by Owl City 

I sick of the past I can't erase

A jumble of footprints and hasty steps I can't retrace 

A mountain of things I still regret

Is a vile reminder that I would better just forget

Ikhlas tapi jauh by VE
All time favourite :D

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I really had a fair share of your good lover, insidious partner and helplessly romantic song on the queue. At least I can tell my kids one day that I had a vile yet sweet memory of thinking herself that she had fallen in love. Too young too dumb to realise. Got it. Thank you Bruno Mars. Also the lyrics of: Tell the devil I say hey when you get back to where you're from. Hahaha.

Just when I thought the playlist was ending, then popped the song that would be the last song I'd ever choose to listen again. 

When you say nothing at all by Ronan Keating. 

Shoot. 

One shot of bullet goes straight to the heart. 

Bleed.